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I call close friends to help me stop the porn and sex addictions.

I know I’m a born again believer. The problem was, I didn’t know how to look for help in what I was trying to mend and fix. I also had an alcohol problem. There was a day that I would have my first drink before I would have m...

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My addiction was pornography, sexual addiction. While married, I’ve had numerous affairs. I have been a basketball coach in Christian schools. I’ve been a Sunday School teacher. I’ve done all these things. It never did last. I know I’m a born again believer. The problem was, I didn’t know how to look for help in what I was trying to mend and fix. I also had an alcohol problem. There was a day that I would have my first drink before I would have my first meal.

I guess the thing that I struggled with and tried to cover up or get passed, or get through was the fact that I was sexually abused when I was younger. When I was ten or eleven years old a young man that lived next door would spend time with me. I had no male figure in my life showing me attention, so I liked being with him. We ended up at his home, and he showed me pornography. That’s when it all started. It then went from watching the pornography to physical sexual abuse. I was afraid to tell anyone because I thought, “What if they don’t believe me?” So, I kept it to myself. The only person I told until I started my first Twelve Step program, was my wife.

One evening during the first Twelve Step Program I was ever involved in there were about seven or eight men sitting around a table. We had finished our lesson and answered our questions. That is when I told those men that I had been sexually abused. That started the healing process. I now have sponsors and accountability partners. I can go to them or call them at 10:00am or 10:00pm. I know I can talk with them and get through a tempting situation.

It’s kind of difficult to live your life without a computer. Now, my first thoughts when I sit down in front of my computer are no longer pornographic websites. The more time I spend with the Lord and in ministry the further and further those thoughts get from my mind. It is a fact that you cannot experience recovery without the Lord Jesus Christ. I am a firm believer, and proof, of that.

Dan C - I call close friends to help me stop the porn and sex addictions.

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