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I was addicted to pornography, I was addicted to masturbation. I was addicted to sex. I was also a heterosexual male
"By the time I was in puberty I had one foot in the homosexual world, one in the heterosexual world, and I didn’t know how I got there."
I started to make emotional ties with a lot of these girls that were just unhealthy.
That’s the key thing here and when someone says they’re gay or homosexual, that is now saying; “That is my identity.”
I tried to live for the Lord and the Devil at the same time. I was straddling the fence, so to speak. It doesn’t work. I thought, “I can’t live it.”
I remember of walking on a bridge in New York City, hearing an evil presence. As I looked over the edge of the bridge I heard a voice say, “Jump. It’ll be all over.”
I had gotten so far down I was eating out of a garbage can. A pastor came to the campsite where I was living and said, ‘Would you like to go to church today?’ I said, “Well, not particularly, not really.” When he said, “We're...
Every relationship, every encounter, would get worse, would become more perverted, more faceless, more emotionless. I had been with countless men. I could fill up a notebook full of the men that I had been with.
"My grandfather was very perverted. He did things and said things only to me, and it was kept a secret."
"Suddenly I felt the real power and presence of God. It was like fire and electricity shooting through my body."