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I injected it intravenously. But by the time I was using meth amphetamine, I was willing to do whatever I had to do, um, for, for the dope
So, I had a glass of wine and I got a buzz. I thought; “This is pretty good.” I was immediately addicted.
I remember begging her; “Just let me die. Just let me die. I mean, just leave me alone and let me die.” Praise God! She told me; “I can’t do that.”
"I would stab myself with a sewing needle. Or any kind of needle. Just to feel that pain. To know, you're still here. You're still human. You're still alive in some way. To make that pain, just show what I felt on the inside....
Carrie prostituted herself for drugs. As a registered nurse, educated and articulate, she never expected to go so low.
I had never prostituted before and I was going to go down there for the first time and do it.
That night I was gang raped by five men. I was so ashamed and so embarrassed. I felt like it was my fault. I blamed myself and I didn’t want to tell anyone.
"I was taking ecstasy, cocaine, pain killers or whatever it took just to feel numb."
We got busted three times within three weeks. The last time we got busted was with felony possession. I was sentenced to eight years in prison.
Then they gang raped me. I came close to dying that night.