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I knew better. I was raised better, but once I started and the more I did it the deeper into it I got.
I slept in the car one night with my newborn baby. That was one of those “God, why me” moments.
I had a big head and a big attitude to go along with it. I had the house, cars, the boat; the middle class dream. All of a sudden I started making some real bad choices.
We got busted three times within three weeks. The last time we got busted was with felony possession. I was sentenced to eight years in prison.
"I almost feel completely empty, completely drained, completely freed of everything that had held me back before."
That’s the key thing here and when someone says they’re gay or homosexual, that is now saying; “That is my identity.”
I just lost all hope. I was just being dealt the wrong hand. I really went into a depression.
I thought that I had nothing to live for. I thought that I was the most worthless mother on the face of the earth. I was no good as a wife. As a mother. As a daughter. As a friend
I was addicted to pornography, I was addicted to masturbation. I was addicted to sex. I was also a heterosexual male
I had never prostituted before and I was going to go down there for the first time and do it.