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I slept in the car one night with my newborn baby. That was one of those “God, why me” moments.
I decided I was going to get up and I decided I was going to get in my car and drive up Glendora Mountain Road where teenagers would always drive drunk, and every few years someone would end up driving off a cliff.
I did the empty chair procedure. I asked my father all these questions. Then I was to get up and sit in the chair and answer the questions. This didn’t make a bit of sense to me but I did it.
I just started squalling and laughing and carrying on like a crazy woman. It was like a bolt of lightening hit me in the head.
"I was quickly reminded of Christ and that is what life is about."
"That just gave me a front row seat to one of God’s miracles."
"I almost feel completely empty, completely drained, completely freed of everything that had held me back before."
“There is something wrong with me and I don’t know what it is.” He said; “Well, you’re having anxiety attacks.”
And God clearly said; “You are going to die this year.” I remember it scared me.
I just lost all hope. I was just being dealt the wrong hand. I really went into a depression.